Sunday, December 26, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
A little about me....I am 31 and married to the most wonderful guy, B. We got married in July 08 and New Years of that year I threw away my BCP and we started TTC. My cycles were long and I was sure I wasn't ovulating but my ob/gyn kept telling me to be patient and that was normal after the pill. Finally in October I started on Clomid and by March of this year, I was seeing an RE. Since working with her, I have had 5 IUI's and no BFP. I also don't really have a diagnosis. I don't ovulate on my own but no one can tell me why. My FSH is borderline at 10.1.
Right now I am 11 days in to my 2 week wait, I can take a HPT on Christmas day. I am waiting until Monday though because I don't want my holiday ruined by a BFN. This was my fifth and final IUI, if this one doesn't work, we are moving on to IVF, probably in February or March. I have some mixed feelings about that. I am ready to move on, at this point I don't think IUI's are going to work for us. It does bother me though that I don't know why I don't ovulate. I keep thinking that maybe the reason I am not not ovulating is the reason I am not getting pregnant. There is a doctor in my area, and ob/gyn, with a special interest in fertility. He is Catholic and doesn't believe in ART so he works really hard to figure out what is causing your problem. I do have a consultation with him in January to see what he says.
So that's me in a nutshell. Thanks for visiting and I hope you stick around!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Day 19 A talent of mine
Friday, September 17, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
In two days it will be the 9 years since the attack on the twin towers. It still haunts me to this day. I will never forget turning on the TV and seeing this image, as it was happening. It was surreal. Who could do such a thing? I felt a lot of emotions that morning... mostly anger at the people who could do this to my city, my home. Now when I go go back to visit, this is what I see...
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Here’s the rundown:
Day 1 - your favorite song
Day 2 - your favorite movie
Day 3 - your favorite television program
Day 4 - your favorite book
Day 5 - your favorite quote
Day 6 - 20 of my favorite things
Day 7 - a photo that makes you happy
Day 8 - a photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 9 - a photo you took
Day 10 - a photo taken over 10 years ago of you
Day 11 - a photo of you recently
Day 12 - something you are OCD about
Day 13 - a fictional book
Day 14 - a non-fictional book
Day 15 - your dream house
Day 16 - a song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 - an art piece (drawing, sculpture, painting, etc)
Day 18 - my wedding/future wedding/past wedding
Day 19 - a talent of yours
Day 20 - a hobby of yours
Day 21 - a recipe
Day 22 - a website
Day 23 - a youtube video
Day 24 - where I live
Day 25 - your day, in great detail
Day 26 - your week, in great detail
Day 27 - my worst habit
Day 28 - what's in my handbag/purse
Day 29 - hopes,dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 - a dream for the future
Looking forward to starting tomorrow!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
Sorry I did not notice that you left your work pants in the car yesterday when I was doing three loads of laundry and you don't have clean pants this morning.
Sorry I didn't water the plants yesterday in between laundry, grocery shopping and making 2 dozen cupcakes for you
Sorry I do not want to water them this morning before I have to go to work for 12 hours
Sorry I assumed you had watered said plants when you were outside mowing the lawn yesterday.
In between working full time, taking care of the house, rearranging my schedule to go the doctor at least once a week, and giving myself daily injections, I will try harder to be nicer to you.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Last day of ICLW. I really enjoyed my first one and look forward to doing it again next month. I loved reading everyone's comments on my blog and they have inspired me to become more positive about my situation. I am going to really make an effort to not be such a Debbie Downer. I found lots of good blogs and am excited to follow everyone's journey through the land of IF. Here's to hoping we all make it off the island!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
RIght now I am exactly 9dpIUI and the crazies are settling in. I have had cramps since 7dpIUI, I am exhausted, and my boobs are a little sore. I am sure the cramps have nothing to do with my IBS, the exhausted feeling has nothing to do with the fact I was away for a long weekend in a 3 bedroom house with 8 adults and 4 children under 5 or the fact that I get up at 5am for work every day. And the sore boobs? They are probably sore from squeezing them 20 times a day to see if they are sore yet! I am struggling not to POAS, I have access to an unlimited supply at work but I am so afraid I will get a false positive from my trigger shot I can't bring myself to do it.
Thanks for visiting!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Now is the hard part - the dreaded two week wait. The first week is not so bad but the second week every little thing I think is a pregnancy symptom. It is enough to drive me to drink (and I usually do, drink till it's pink right?!?!).
Friday, July 9, 2010
At work, I am the opposite though. I hate it when it is slow. I like to be busy all day, and if I don't have anything to do, I will find something. I CAN NOT stand lazy people at work. There is an RN I work with that is so lazy. She actually said out loud "I like when it is slow so I can sit around and do nothing" Drives me crazy! It doesn't help that she is 22 and pregnant on her first try.
I also dislike the fact that my ovaries are so damn lazy. Last cycle I produced a beautiful 23mm follicle. This cycle, 12.5. Bullshit. Why is is so hard for my ovaries to do what they are supposed to and just make a nice follicle? I am not greedy, I only need one. Moving on to injectables for next cycle. F*ck you lazy ovaries!!!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I went ahead and ordered the dress tonight. From the website, it looked like they discontinued it so I panicked and called. Realistically even if I get pregnant this cycle I will barely be out of my first trimester for the wedding so the sizing and the traveling really shouldn't be an issue. I am am still a little sad about it. I feel like I just jinxed this cycle.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
On a completely different topic, I made these tonight while B is at golf - http://smittenkitchen.com/2008/07/blueberry-crumb-bars/#more-531
They look and smell divine, I can not wait to taste them. Smitten Kitchen never lets me down!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
I was in a similar situation with R, a girl I work with. She knew I had been trying and though it would be so fun if we were pregnant together. Today was her last day at work before her scheduled C-section.
Then there is me...no pregnancy, no baby, just a large cyst that won't seem to go away. And my husband wonders why I am in a bad mood all the time. He asked me this weekend when I was going to go back to my normal happy self and I told him "when I get pregnant" He wasn't to happy with that answer. He tries to be supportive but he just doesn't get it. I do need to make more of an effort to snap out of this funk and be grateful for what I do have. Easier said than done though.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
B and I went away for the holiday weekend which was nice but I found myself staring at my pregnant sister in law's belly a lot...to the point where she probably noticed but she would never say anything because she knows what I am going through...and really what would she say? I swear though, everywhere I turned while we were away there were pregnant woman. It made me wonder if there was some kind of preggo convention at the Ritz. Even two of our servers in the bar area were pregnant!
My next ultrasound is Friday so keeping my fingers crossed.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
This morning when I woke up, I had another visitor. Aunt Flo. She was not invited so I am not sure why she decided to show up, completely unannounced. I had a feeling she might show up last night but it still hurt to see her this morning. Not a good visit. I am sure she will stick around for 3-4 days and once she leaves, I hope I don't see again for about 9 months.