I tried therapy but didn't feel like it helped. I am going to a resolve support group meeting tomorrow which I am really nervous about. I am pretty shy around people I don't know but I am feeling slightly desperate. I just need to hear from other people that this is normal. And I need some non-pregnant friends, I have too many right now.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I'm tired...
...of being sad. It's hard to to tell if it's depression, hormones, or a little bit of both. My good friend at work J called me on Sunday to tell me she was pregnant. I started sobbing and had to hang up. I cried again the next day when one of the nurse practitioners I work with asked me if I was OK about it. She hasn't told anyone else at work yet besides the two of us but I am dreading it. Everyone is going to be so happy for her and I feel like everyone is going to be thinking "oh poor L" I don't know, maybe that is narcissistic of me but that's how I feel. When I started my blog 6 months ago, I found 20 blogs to follow through ICLW. 10 of those ladies are now pregnant. I am happy for them and hope to join them one day but it is a painful reminder of how left behind I feel.
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UGH, I know the feelings. Just realized today that 20+ of the ppl I follow are preggo or Moms... I'm in the last half. FML.
ReplyDeleteI have found the RESOLVE support group I go to extremely helpful. I was really nervous about going the first time and each month I have a few moments of 'do I really want to go tonight?' But I always come away understanding that I'm not alone. And that's so worth it. Take care.
ReplyDeleteI know, I am tired too. It is hard. But you are not alone. Try as hard as you can to recognize all of the wonderful things that life has to offer outside of breeding. In the mean time we are here for you.
ReplyDeleteHey, Lady: Just sending a hug. I went to a RESOLVE group, and it was nice to physically be in the same room as women who were dealing with infertility. Get ready to cry though . . . there's something about actually talking and listening that is really gut-wrenching . . .
ReplyDeleteA very normal feeling. Im still struggling to conceive, so if you need to read a blog about someone similiar to you, please read mine. I Look forward to following your blog. we can help eachother
ReplyDeleteOh it' refreshing to read your post, because I have been feeling exactly the same as you. My younger sister has just announced she was pregnant, so I have been dealing with my emotions with that, my family haven't understood me crying about the news is normal for people dealing with IF. I also feel like I'm the only one left, so if you need another IF friend, check out my blog, so we can be in this together.
ReplyDeleteIt is just that cocktail of hormones, emotions, endless appointments...it makes the most hopeful amongst us feel rotten - especially when others have success. I promise there are plenty of IF bloggers not yet pregnant to keep you company!
ReplyDeleteI hope your good news isn't too far away!
LS x