I tried therapy but didn't feel like it helped. I am going to a resolve support group meeting tomorrow which I am really nervous about. I am pretty shy around people I don't know but I am feeling slightly desperate. I just need to hear from other people that this is normal. And I need some non-pregnant friends, I have too many right now.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
...of being sad. It's hard to to tell if it's depression, hormones, or a little bit of both. My good friend at work J called me on Sunday to tell me she was pregnant. I started sobbing and had to hang up. I cried again the next day when one of the nurse practitioners I work with asked me if I was OK about it. She hasn't told anyone else at work yet besides the two of us but I am dreading it. Everyone is going to be so happy for her and I feel like everyone is going to be thinking "oh poor L" I don't know, maybe that is narcissistic of me but that's how I feel. When I started my blog 6 months ago, I found 20 blogs to follow through ICLW. 10 of those ladies are now pregnant. I am happy for them and hope to join them one day but it is a painful reminder of how left behind I feel.