Friday, January 21, 2011

Moving right along...

Welcome all from ICLW! You can read about my TTC over that way ------->

Long story short, after 2 years of trying, we are moving on to IVF. Today I had my saline ultrasound and mock transfer. It wasn't to bad although apparently I have a sensitive uterus. My Dr was surprised at how I knew immediately when she was pushing in more fluid. Also my cervix is pretty tightly closed so during my ER she is going to dilate it a smidge to ensure the catheter passes in easily and quickly the day of my transfer. I also had lots of blood drawn.

When I had talked to the IVF nurse a few weeks ago, we had planned in cycling early march with an estimated ER on 3/17 but my doctor asked me today if I would consider pushing it back because she would be out of town that week and even though one of her partners could do it, she really wanted to be there. She is so sweet. So now we are looking at 3/24 as our estimated date. At least now I don't have to worry about starting Lupron while we are on vacation in Florida at the end of February.

I still have a consultation next week with Dr.P. He has come highly recommended from my acupuncturist, a good friend and lots of women in my support group. He is an Ob/Gyn that uses NaPro Technology and the Creighton Model. To be honest, I really don't buy into it but so many people have said such wonderful things about him I figured it can't hurt to have a consultation. I still do think there is something wrong with my hormones that my RE can't figure out so maybe he has another idea. Has anyone had any experience with this method?

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Weekend Update

There is nothing to exciting going on in my world so not much to talk about.

In IF news...Thursday I had my mandatory IVF class which I thought was interesting but nothing I didn't already know. The embryologist talked in depth about the IVF process for 1.5 hours, it definitely could have been condensed in to 45 minutes. I have my saline ultrasound and mock transfer scheduled for Friday and that will be my last appointment until my suppression check March 1.

Sort of IF related...I bought a Groupon last week for laser hair removal. It was $100 for 4 treatments, I couldn't pass it up. I had my first session on Thursday. I figured I have enough people poking around my vagina, I should have my bikini done. No more worrying about shaving for my appointments! It actually wasn't that bad, but I have been getting bikini waxes almost every month for the last 10 years so I think I am very tolerant to pain in that area.

Not IF related at all...I am throwing in party for all my work friends on Saturday and I am excited. It's partially an excuse to try out some yummy new recipes I have been dying to make and partially because we have been so busy lately we needed a fun outside of work activity. I will post some of the recipes after the party if they turn out as good as they look!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

A Plan

After my IVF consult, I was waiting for the IVF nurse to call me to over "the plan" We played some phone tag but I finally talked to her today and she was so nice, I liked her immediately. I was a little worried because there is a nurse in the office that I really don't like, she has made a few comments to me that made me think she didn't really know what she was doing but she is nothing like her.

I have my IVF class on Thursday. My saline ultrasound and labs will be on 1/21 and then I will start Lupron 2/24. It's crazy, I thought I was taking a 2 month break but there is so much prep for an IVF cycle, it seems like I barely have time to get used to the idea that I am actually even doing it.

I have been thinking since my last post about how I was having a hard time putting into words how I was feeling. I think the problem is while I am happy to be moving on and increasing my chances of getting pregnant, I know that IVF is not guaranteed. It might not work, I might not get pregnant. And I don't even want to think about how I will feel if this doesn't work. So I am trying to avoid feeling anything.

As my husband put it, it's like we are walking into a casino, walking up to the roulette table, dropping $10,000 on red and hoping black doesn't show up. It's a 50/50 chance.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

IVF consult

I had my IVF consult today. I thought this would be an easy post to write but I am having a hard time putting my feelings into words. I think it is because I am feeling so many conflicting emotions. I am nervous and scared and at the same time happy and hopeful. I am overwhelmed at the amount of information I received today. My doctor didn't really have any answers for me though as to why I am not ovulating so that was disappointing but she seems confident that IVF can work for us. The IVF nurse will be calling me this week to set up a schedule, I am planning for ER/ET mid March. They also have a financial person who calls your insurance company and finds out what will be covered and what won't to let you know how much it will cost. We have some coverage so that will be helpful since she said the average cost without any coverage at all is $12,000. I have lots to think about, I'll try to sort out some feelings and have a better post another day.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

2 years

2 years ago on New Years Eve I took my last BCP. This New Years Eve I started them back up again. I wasn't going too, but I really want to start my IVF cycle end of Feb/beginning of March and I was afraid I wouldn't get a period. Last time I was not medicated it took me 61 days and 2 rounds of Provera to make AF appear. I just can't believe it's been 2 years and I have not gotten pregnant and am getting ready to start IVF. I never thought I'd be here, it just seems so surreal.