Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The dress

My best friend is getting married in October. I am so incredibly happy for her. When she first set her date last December and asked me to be a bridesmaid of course I said yes. She knew that B and I were trying so I warned her there was a good possibility I wouldn't be able to make it though because I would probably be pregnant. Fast forward 6 months and I am still no closer to being pregnant. Every cycle for the last few months I kept telling myself, "If I am not pregnant this cycle, I will get the dress" but I never did. If I ordered it, it was admitting defeat, I would not be pregnant for this wedding. I even went and tried it on after my last cycle failed and I developed the cyst but I still couldn't bring myself to buy it at the time.

I went ahead and ordered the dress tonight. From the website, it looked like they discontinued it so I panicked and called. Realistically even if I get pregnant this cycle I will barely be out of my first trimester for the wedding so the sizing and the traveling really shouldn't be an issue. I am am still a little sad about it. I feel like I just jinxed this cycle.


  1. Here from ICLW (#91) and I just thought I'd say that if anything, maybe you jinxed it in a GOOD way...like it was just waiting for you to have that dress and have to worry about fitting into it for you to get your BFP!

  2. Thanks for the positive thought. I always seem to put a negative spin on anything to do with my IF, I have need to make an effort to think more positively!