My best friend is getting married in October. I am so incredibly happy for her. When she first set her date last December and asked me to be a bridesmaid of course I said yes. She knew that B and I were trying so I warned her there was a good possibility I wouldn't be able to make it though because I would probably be pregnant. Fast forward 6 months and I am still no closer to being pregnant. Every cycle for the last few months I kept telling myself, "If I am not pregnant this cycle, I will get the dress" but I never did. If I ordered it, it was admitting defeat, I would not be pregnant for this wedding. I even went and tried it on after my last cycle failed and I developed the cyst but I still couldn't bring myself to buy it at the time.
I went ahead and ordered the dress tonight. From the website, it looked like they discontinued it so I panicked and called. Realistically even if I get pregnant this cycle I will barely be out of my first trimester for the wedding so the sizing and the traveling really shouldn't be an issue. I am am still a little sad about it. I feel like I just jinxed this cycle.