I have been looking forward to Friday all week, especially after my negative test on Tuesday. I have a really fun girls night out planned with 5 girls, one visiting from out of town. We have dinner reservations at this really nice italian place and then we are going out for drinks. Thankfully I had the foresight last week to book myself a massage for Friday. I thought I might need it if this cycle didn't work out. I also added in a bikini wax and mani/pedi as well, after reading this post on another blog. I deserve a good spa day!
So my closest friend here (I have only lived here for 5 years) is J. One of the sweetest people I have ever met. She asked if she could stop by last night to pick up a book she needs to read for her book club. We were chatting about dinner Friday and then she confessed she really wanted to come by to tell me she was pregnant. I appreciate that she came by, she knows what we are going through and she didn't want me to find out Friday in front of a lot of people, but I was so devasted. After she left, I just started bawling. Now I am not even that excited to go out on Friday. I am paranoid that when S gets here (friend from out of town) she is going to announce that she is pregnant too and if that happens, I just don't think I can handle it.
I am hoping I will feel better about this tomorrow, I so hormonal right now, still haven't gotten AF yet, even though I stopped my progesterone suppositories on Sunday, and to top it all off I am on call this week at work and I got called in last night after crying my eyes out and of course I had to work today so I am exhausted.
I am thinking some retail therapy is necessary tomorrow as well, in addition to my spa day. What would you splurge on?
I read the blog you linked to, and I'm thinking I need to do some retail therapy as well. If I was you, I'd splurge on a Catholic School Girl Outfit, some sexy new heels, and get after it again. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about your friend J - ironically, my best friend here (J) got pregnant ACCIDENTALLY last November, and she was petrified to tell me. I was super sad and hurt and everything... but just work on remembering that your IF issues have nothing to do with their Fertile issues, and J (or S) isn't getting KU to hurt you. Just sucks that it happens that way anyway though.
Hang in there. ((HUGS))
Massage is good. Clothes? Shoes? Whatever you want, do it, you deserve it. Spoil yourself b/c when you have a kid(s) it won't be as easy to do so, at least that is how I look at it.
ReplyDeleteSorry the AF is on her way, mine is too, the asshole.
Its funny, I am planning to hang with a good friend tomorrow and I am convinced she is going to tell me she is pregnant, again.
I am sorry. I know how you feel. Try to have fun tomorrow.
BTW, this entry title is awesome, I listened to the Cake song this morning, Friend is a four letter word, do you know it?
I'm so sorry about your BFN. I hope you enjoyed your day of pampering. HUGS.
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