Friday, March 4, 2011

Mental Health Day

It's official, my first IVF cycle has begun. I went to acupuncture on Wednesday night. Yesterday was my first day of Lupron. I celebrated by going out with some girls after work where I ate some greasy pizza and drank a couple of beers. I came home and popped my first 2 pills from my Z-pack. By 2:30 am I was up having tons of hot flashes and my IBS was really flaring up. So I decided to take a mental health day from work today. I laid in bed most of the day, dozing on and off while watching The Today Show and some DVR'd programs.

Even though we took a break and have been planning this for 2 months, I still don't feel ready. I am so scared this is not going to work and just don't know how I will handle it if it doesn't. My friend K called me today which was great timing. She has an 8 month old as a result of her first IVF. It was great to hear that she had the same thoughts and fears as I did and I feel much better after our conversation.

Today was my day to feel sorry for myself but it will stop here. I am going to my big girl panties on and have a better outlook about the whole situation. I am a strong person and I have an amazing husband, we will get through this no matter what the outcome. It helps knowing I am not alone in this process, good luck to my 2 cycle buddies...Miss Mac is about 1 week ahead of me and Lauren will be about one week behind me. Hoping for happy and healthy pregnancies for all 3 of us!

6 comments:

  1. Whohoo!! So excited and hopeful for this upcoming cycle for you!

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  2. My fingers are crossed for you and this cycle!!!

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  3. Copy that! Let's give our lazy ovaries a workout and end up with lots of eggs and a BFP these next few weeks. Wish you all the best and hope to be celebrating with you soon. Thanks for the advice about the glass vial, I'll check on the filter needle, those bottles are intimidating! Hope the mental health day helped you to feel better!

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  4. Good for you for taking a mental health day. I've been taking mental health mornings for the past few weeks - and thankfully my work is flexible enough to let me get away with it.

    I will be just about a week ahead of your retrieval, sometime the week of March 17th, starting my stims on Tuesday. It is exciting, and overwhelming. But I am feeling more positive than I've felt in a while.

    Good luck to you my friend... Ill be checking in again soon :)

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  5. Congrats on getting started!

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