Thursday, April 7, 2011

The Tenth Circle

I think when Dante wrote the inferno he forgot about the 10th circle, the place where infertiles get stuck during the 2 week wait, taunted by pregnant bellies, fat little babies and other women's positive pee sticks.

This is by far the most tortuous two week wait ever. My beta is Sunday and it still seems so far away. I am not feeling much of anything, boobs are sore, I am a little crampy although that seems to be dropping off but I can blame that on the progesterone.

And now I feel like karma is going to come back and bite me in the ass after I posted about my friend who perfectly planned her pregnancy last week, a few days later we got an e-mail from her husband saying that she lost the baby and now I feel terrible. Every positive beta I see makes me so happy but yet so afraid. How can it work for all of us? Odds are someone is going to get a negative and I feel like it is going to be me.

7 comments:

  1. No no, no thinking like that. It is going to be great. I think we are on a roll this month, and you are going to be next!

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  2. The post Ivf 2ww IS hell, especially the last week. I had very little symptoms when I was preggo, hope this is it!

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  3. Here's to hoping you get your BFP!

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  4. I'm right there with you (I'm testing tomorrow at 12dpo) There really is nothing like a TWW. And the last few days are THE WORST. Fingers crossed for you!!

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  5. Why do any of us have to be left out? The odds have been against us since TTC and it's our time to defy those odds, darn it! I want this so much for you, one of my cycle sisters from day 1... with the same diagnosis of irregular/anovulatory cycles, I'm hoping & praying you also get good news this weekend.

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  6. Good luck tomorrow! Thinking of you!

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