Tuesday, April 12, 2011

The Eleventh Circle

I have moved on from the hell of the 2ww into a new hell...beta hell. My second beta went up...but only to 54. I go back on Friday for a third beta but at this point I have no hope of this working out. I wasn't that surprised, I POAS this morning to see if it was getting darker and it actually was lighter. I am just so devastated. It just doesn't seem fair that this has to be so hard.

14 comments:

  1. I'm praying that you see a nice rise on Friday. It is DEFINITELY not over yet. Keep on hoping. You are still pregnant, this will work out. Stick baby, stick!

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  2. I'm thinking of you in such a difficult time. I know how helpless seeing the lines get lighter feels. Hang in there... I'm hoping the very best for you.

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  3. Ugh! No fun at all! The waiting is HORRIBLE! Praying for better/concise results on Friday!

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  4. Hoping that you get much better results on Friday. Beta hell is the absolute worst...

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  5. So hard and not fair, any of it. I'm so hoping Friday brings you a good report and renewed hope.

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  6. Oh gosh, I'm so sorry this is so hard. :( Praying for a REALLY good rise at the next beta.

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  7. I'm so sorry hun, I really hope Friday brings some great news for you.

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  8. I really hope you get great news on Friday! Sending you love and good thoughts!!

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  9. Oh sweetie :( You never know how this is going to go, so let's all send positive energy for a nice big jump in beta levels for Friday!! <3

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  10. Its not over yet, try to stay strong. x

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  11. oh geez hun, this is not what we wanted to hear. the roller coaster just doesn't know when to stop. hang on and keep breathing. we are all thinking about you.

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  12. Hang in there you are in my prayers!

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  13. I'm sending up lots and lots of prayers and good vibes for you. I've heard of women's first betas being very low and then still going on to have healthy babies, so I still have hope for you!! Sending lots of XOXO!!!

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  14. i will definitely be praying for you and crossing everything! i truly hope this little one sticks. big hugs!

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