Playing Pretend

Did you ever play pretend when you were little? My sister and I could play for hours. One of our favorites was playing office. We would set up our desks and our pretend boss Mr.Boggle (I can't even believe I still remember his name!) would give us tasks to do. Don't even get me started on the elaborate scenarios we would act out with our barbies!

I have been playing pretend ever since I signed my consents for my IVF. I am just so damn sick of being infertile, I decided to just pretend I wasn't. Since I didn't have anything IF related between that appointment and when I start Lupron it was easier than it sounds. I did what I wanted without thinking of how it would affect or not affect my fertility. I went to yoga and twisted my body in positions in shouldn't be in, I drank alcohol and caffeine, had a normal sex life, it was pretty nice. Don't get me wrong, it was still there in the back of my mind but I tried really hard to keep it shoved back there. It's quite sad when you think about it, I actually had to pretend to be "normal".

All that was over on Saturday when I get my HUGE box of meds. Talk about overwhelming! I knew I was expecting a lot of stuff but to see it all laid out on my counter was slightly scary. So I think my little game of pretend is pretty much over. It was nice while it lasted though. We have one last weekend of fun in the sun planned. We are heading to Florida for a long weekend to visit some family. I am excited to see my nieces, meet my new nephew (he will be 4 months old tomorrow!), hit the beach, and of course drink wine with my sister-in-law. I am so lucky that my husband's siblings and their spouses are awesome! Then Lupron starts on March 3rd.

Filter Free Friday

AP over at My Dusty Uterus came up with this amazing idea for filter free fridays.

My thought for today is:

Sometimes I park in the expectant mother only parking spots at my grocery store. They just put the spots in a few months ago and when I know I am only going in to grab something quick I park there if it's the closest spot. And I don't feel bad about. I hate that they are there to remind me every time I go to the grocery that I am not expecting and I may never be.

And the Oscar goes too...

the biggest blogger slacker ever! I have been avoiding the blog world for over a week now (more on this in a later post) and I return to find not one but three awards. I feel like I don't even deserve them now. But I am so grateful for the love, it is much needed and appreciated. I am mostly caught up on reading and I will try to catch up on my comments soon. In the meantime...

Thank you to Lauren over at Lauren vs. The World. She has her first IVF consult coming up so go over and give her some support.

Thank you to Amy over at Maternal Hope. She is in the midst of her first IVF cycle, so stop on over and give her some encouragement.

Thank you to Cher over at In a Nutshell. She is saving up for IVF #2 and we should be cycling around the same time so make sure to go on over and say hi!

So, on to the rules for the awards...

Rules for accepting this award:

1. Thank and Link back to the person who awarded you the award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Award 15 other bloggers the award.
4. Contact bloggers and let them know about the award and that they received it

7 Random Facts about me:

1. I am a NYC snob, even though I don't live there anymore, I still think it is the greatest city ever.

2. I have a huge sweet tooth, I snack on candy every afternoon at work and eat dessert every night after dinner.

3. My husband started out as a vacation fling. When I first met him, I had no intention of ever seeing him again.

4. I love to travel, my "consolation prize" if this IVF fails is a trip to Spain and Italy.

5. If I knew I wouldn't get skin cancer, I'd tan all year. I love being tan, not Jersey Shore Orange tan but a nice healthy glow.

6. I am addicted to my iPhone, I am on it all the time. My husband thinks I have a problem and I should give it up for Lent.

7. I love to read, my husband and I frequent the library and I always have at least 2 books on my nightstand and many more on my must read list.

As far as nominations go, if you stuck around during my extra long hiatus, you are nominated!